be thou my vision.

my sister and i were talking about van morrison today, so i decided to listen to hymns to the silence.

we grew up listening to him all the time. probably because he's from belfast and so is my dad. some of the places he sings about are places i've actually been to. listening to "be thou my vision" today made me get a lump in my throat and blink back tears. i miss my dad so much. i'm scared i won't get to know him the way i want to. he has so many secrets, my daddy. so much secret pain i've only been allowed glimpses of.

this is my solemn promise to get to know my dad better. i'm writing him a letter this evening.